dear xanga,

last week was an eventful week for me.

when i got home the night when i had cell group, my brother came back from brunei for a surprise visit.

well, it wasn't so much of a surprise cos we knew that he would be back for the hols but just didn't know exactly when. and the best thing was, my elder bro came with his long term girlfriend from msia the next day. And i finally got to see my cousins after a "half-life". they are the children of my uncle whom my brother is working for. all msia people finding subsistence in brunei.

i didnt know how.. i ended up becoming like a tourist cum tour guide and followed them to chinatown, zoo and the following day - science centre. it isnt as cheesy as it sounds. i had a great time, seriously. after all, it had been donkey years since i last step into those places. i'll get some pics uploaded another time.

then the next thing was, i decided to return to msia with them. luckily, they stayed in jb,  kind of near singapore. stayed at my uncle's "palace" which looked more like a hotel. their bedcovers/sheets are sent to the laundry every day. air conditioners switched on like almost 24/7. mom thought of staying for only a night, just to catch up and all, but the next day, my uncle suggested going on a day's cruise. mom had to leave for work, so i went with them.

so yeah, buffet and all those games.. while the adults went into casino. haha, i managed to sneak in for peek.. but it wasn't really a place for me. then we spent another night at my uncle's place and left the next morning. supper and breakfast and all were really good (:

then i couldn't make it for planet shakers, too tired and you know, you get those yucky feeling when you get back from another place so you just want to stay at home.

wanted to spend my saturday at home again but i promised cow and chicken bout the sleepover-but-turn-out-not movie mania. so, in the afternoon, i worked for my mom's friend at somerset then went home to shower and pack FOR THAT SLEEPOVER- turn out, it wasn't that day. then went to meet them and chicken's church friends. watched cars. got to see the environment of a family-family church. it's so warm and cosy. then negative thoughts bout large churches came again.. ugh. it was really great. chicken's friends were so simple and sweet. so transparent and non-discriminating.

next day went to church with charis, and we forgot hall 9 won't be opened. we wanted to do our hols hwk thr. so in the end, the best possible way was sitting at the back of the hall where it was the brightest and yeah, i did like a page of math. only.

when chinese svc congre was dismissed, charis and i went in front to like "chop" seats then in the end we got chased out cos svc hasn't started. actually i see no point in moving out cos in the end, we only waited for bout 2min before we enter again. quite silly.

then happy father's day to all fathers...

then went to california fitness for the second time. i was kind of noob, i mean, it was my 2nd time thr. but thank God for making me such a thick-skinned person, i just noobly/bravely/coolly asked for assistance.

ohmg, i had a great trainer and of course a great workout. i shan't elaborate on the contents of it all but i have to say, it made me very happy. like i no longer desire skinny-bambootic bods. i want to be healthy, and i damn am.

he told me specifically where to train up and told me a lot of my good points and yeah, he really made sense. then he told me that its good i had developed muscles like even in my tri/biceps [i think swimming helped], just need to get my fats percentage lower than 12% or sth and you can see pecs. not the guys pecs but you know girl's tone abs. then he said i had nice butt and taught me how to get curves for shoulders to butt. but he said i had to stop running like how im running during my trg if i wanted my calves and thighs to reduce in sizes. because of the stress/impact bla. anyw, trg will end in july...

then the funny thing was we commented on other girl's in the gym and i was like cycling. then most of them has butterfly arms when we really look at them. nice only at first look - wings so visible. and there were this 2 girls who are his staff who are like underweight.

me:  nice what, skinny, no fats.

him:  its not nice. it's not healthy. they're underweight. would you rather be fit and healthy or like a nice car but a lousy engine. you don't know what's underneath their clothes, all the fats accumulated in between the hamstrings and butt [cellulite?] you'll look hot if you wear a tight-fit dress or something else.. you're in workout clothes now, you can't see. [he just meant good shape.]

[then he jokingly said he'll have the best body in CF if he's a girl cos he knows exactly how to train up]

me: is it? like thin thin looks nicer than muscular.

him: noo, when you really train up..you see those caucasians. they look good and are healthy. you see those girls. they've no muscles and no butt. no shape.

then he pointed out another girl and said she used to be v skinny but she now puts on more weight and trains up and now looks better. and  she really look fit and nice.. then he revealed what guys look for in girls and normally hot bods guys like those kind of girls. and its quite true. those lanky skinny guys out thr likes skinny frail looking girls too. haha.

then he said like i must have been a fit person and i train a lot, so i used to be in good shape but then my diet went haywired so fats accumulated over the muscles. ohmg, did i just say that out ? ugh. hahaha. then i said, but i love food, how?? then he said he love food too. then he said i should just enjoy life AND FOCUS ON MY STUDIES FIRST.

then mentioned, getting good bod is easy but maintaining is hard. just don't smoke and drink.

SO ALL GIRLS OUT THR. train up. don't get anorexic! hahaha. we'll do it tgt. burn fats, gain shapely muscles. ahahaha. get hot. lol.

then i tried their sauna and steam bar for the first time. and i was alone in there, so i got to like pray and speak to God in my solitude but got kind of distracted cos of the temperature and the steam which smelt like those where dim sums are kept.

then i bathed and was one of those last people out of the locker. i think the janitor there rmbs me la. ohmg.

 im so glad i got him as my trainer, he didnt try to sell me things or say redundant things and i could ask him even those questions like how to lose fats but maintain full breasts. lol.

and i feel v refreshed. i feel good. i feel sexy. okay, that's all i want. and that's usually how you feel after a good time, aint ?